Do you guys ever think about dying?

Hello guys,

As you can see, today is gonna be a very unusual article and something I never really talk about with anyone. But these days I have been obsessively thinking about death and I want it to stop. This is why I thought it was a good idea to let go of my thoughts... on my blog. Because this is a safe place where I can talk honestly, open up and be transparent.

Since I was a kid, I don't know about you but I never really thought about death. Except when I faced it, like in movies or when someone died, and then I would panic a lot, and fear it. I still fear it in a way, but it's different. I have worked on my fear of death in therapy, and basically, my therapist told me it's ok to have anxiety attacks about death, but we shouldn't try to stop them or distract ourselves. You just have to let it pass and it becomes easier. By being exposed to it repeatedly, it diminishes the fear or importance you give it over time. And I've been doing that ever since, but now I find myself thinking about it constantly. And I think it comes to a point where it's unhealthy. It's good sometimes to remind yourself you have one life to put things into perspective and know what really matters.

Nevertheless, death is not something that should constantly be on your mind, because it's like you're not living in the moment if you're thinking about it. And after all, I think the most important thing in life is to live in the present and enjoy now cause it's all we have. I do believe in God and that is also something helping me on my path to accept death. Life is a cycle and it's gonna end whether we like it or not. In fact, we won't even have time to notice when it does end. So let's just live one day at a time and enjoy everything we have and all the moments we share with our loved ones. Cause when it's all said and done, we will be able to look back without regrets, knowing we enjoyed every moment life (in my case, God) gave us. I think to value it we have to give it meaning and realize each of us was chosen to be here to do something. Death is out of control so let's just focus on what we can control: what we do with the time we have on this earth. If I learned one thing during the pandemic is that I should just accept anything that is out of my control.

So never take another day for granted, practice being present, do what you love, do good for others, and spend time with positive people. I know it's not easy but it'll make everything so much more special and beautiful. I'm happy I shared this with you cause I feel less alone, and we all go through this. I'm doing my best every day to enjoy my life at this very moment, as it is. I still got a lot of work to do, but I'm proud of how far I've come already. I hope this helped you in any way face your fear of death and put it into perspective.

And as per usual, I leave you with a quote:

"In the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years." -Abraham Lincoln"

I love you so much, and you deserve to live the life of your dreams and enjoy it to the fullest, cause you only live once <3

xx -Pablo